I am and always have been a student. I have an academic approach and have held steady to that. I think there is much more inside. I love to paint and maybe that is all I need to keep doing and let the process evolve. I think too much.
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Onions 14x11 oil
I am still processing what I am learning from painting almost everyday. I feel some pressure. I have recognized areas I need to work on, like color, value and myself. I have this desire to paint what I see. It is almost a noose around my neck at times. I fear looking away and letting what I know take over. I stay true to the colors that are there instead of the colors I dream about. Life is pretty grey. So I continue to work at these things. I think at the root of all of this is the fear to just let go. To feel the color and feel passionate about what I am trying to say. The other thought is that I am not sure what I want to say and that I choose to just document. I have grown tire of that and have found myself with heels dug deep, only to find that I am not happy and must break free.