It is Wednesday a week has passed and I returned to Cynthia's today for my last day with Kevin. I get very uncomfortable with this step as it is the summing up and finishing part. I found myself fiddling lots and doing and redoing. I was so focus on the nose and the nostrils I never got to Kevin's right arm which is so dark next to his bright white shirt. As much as I love learning all this I am pretty tense and find myself in a mental fog. The best part is taking all of it home to stare and evaluate. This is the time I start to learn just a little bit of what went on in class and in my head. Time to breath and see what I accomplished on my list of "how do's" for at least this painting.
I got a little more paint on this time and that is a good thing. I worked more on temperature and the little shifts of cool and warm as light crosses over the form. There is so much to comprehend it is head spinning. Sometimes I think I should get it and be done with it. It feels daunting when an issue I may have addressed before reappears in a new form, face, body, landscape or still life. The truth is the more I paint, the more I will experience what I have learned. I will also experience more days when thing go well and when things don't. I have had a row of painting days that I just could not get a painting out of. Yet I was painting and therefore believe there is much that I am learning under the surface.