Potted Hydrangeas 20x16 oil

Hydrangeas hummm...This started from a painting that I decided to recycle. I realized as I went along that there was not much thought put into the process. I always struggle when I just start without a clear plan, which is true of almost everything. First I was completely seduced by the light coming in my window. That would have been okay for a quick small painting not a 20 x 16, which is large for me. The light changed rapidly and I caught myself chasing the light and everything else that had to do with this. I finally put it down and walked away in defeat. The next day I was still drawn to it and hoped to watch the light till it got back to where it was the day before. No such luck, before that happened I had to leave for class and felt once again defeated. I went on and painted the pumpkin painting, with this nagging feeling about giving up on the hydrangeas. So I picked it back up and continued to play and just let go of the hope of finding the light or the thing that caught my eye in the first place.

I might have been better to hang it up. So here it is an exercise somewhat in letting go and moving on and hoping for enlightenment along the way.