A couple of weeks ago I started going to Cynthia Grilli's for inspiration and guidance with the figure and the portrait. It has been a process of decisions. First I had to remember why I was there. I want to let go of what has been safe. Do I need to constantly prove I can draw by doing only what I know? So I get out of my comfort zone to revitalize and that is a good thing. I mean what if I push and lay down color, value and temperatures that make me scream out loud. I can tell you in the process of this painting I let go of a likeness and fought with emotional attachments to explore palette knife textures and scraping with those rubber carving tools. I laid down thick yellows and found every part of me tingling with fear and excitement. My whole body felt alive and I was sort of lost and did not care...maybe a little. I am going to stick with this and hopefully carry this to my pastels too. We will see what happens. All I know is it is time to let go and see what the process will bring.